My life be like...


I can't sleep because I keep thinking about something. One thing in particular. No method my mind can fathom is giving me any solution or rationalization about this, and that doesn't happen very often. I'm often at a loss for words, but never for thought. The thought of this terrifies me, and I hate having to do this, but I am going to have to wait and see how this plays out. This particular situation is so delicate, precarious even. I hate not being able to know how things will work themselves out. I'm frustrated with myself, I've always got the answers, the solutions. I rely on myself for control, and I trust myself, but in this instance, it's not up to me. I want to jump up and stomp on something. I'm not angry, but I am so torn. I can always sit for a moment, and have everything planned out, understand the constants, allow room for variables, and find the answers.

I don't want to plan anymore. It hasn't worked well so far for me, might as well abandon that approach. So screw it. What happens happens and I will gladly roll with it.

Hmm..what is she talking about? English composition? Psychology? Not math..she's terrible at math. No, none of the above. But however it goes, I'll let you all know. For now, I'm gonna try my hand at free falling.

4 Responses to “My life be like...”

  1. Mark N says:

    You're gonna jump outa plane? I think you need to up your medication :)

  2. Ambug says:

    haha, gee thanks!

  3. Mark N says:

    I hope your new fridge is working okay. We're having a real warm spell over here, up to 82deg which is pretty damn hot for England. I guess your summers can be even hotter.

  4. Ambug says:

    wow, lol. yeah it gets a little warmer over here, it was in the 90s, but its cooled off a bit. but yeah thank you, fridge is fine. hope it cools off soon for ya.

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